Sunday.

Today was a good day. Lately I have been just trying to get through each day. Can’t wait for the day to be over. Counting the minutes until I can go to bed but then not able to fall asleep.

Trying to figure all my shit out all at once. Not being true to myself. Wanting everything to be everything I want it to be right this minute.

But I need to remind myself to stop and live and breathe. Enjoy this journey. The good and the bad. It makes us who we are. It is the stories my family will tell long after I am gone. I need to feel my life.

I am not going to figure it all out all at one. And in the end all that really matters are the small moments in my life.

Like today.

Cooking with Kevin.
Laundry.
Hanging out with Chloe.
Catching up on work I love.

Laughing with a friend for hours on the phone while watching and tweeting the Golden Globes and the Red Carpet interviews.

My many glamorous faces for the Golden Globes.

My many glamorous faces for the Golden Globes.

These are the moments that are important.

Cheers to starting a new week.

cheryl
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Here’s the plan.

I had taken a bit of a break to gather my thoughts over the past couple months. I wanted to really figure out what I was doing with my online stuff finally. I needed to sort out where I wanted to go with things and more importantly, where I didn’t want to go. This space can suck you into to places you don’t want to be and you will not realize it until you one day look around and say WHAT THE HELL. What am I doing? Why am I doing it? Am I the person that I want to be? Am I living the life I want? Is it really all about the money?

I think just about every blogger I know has had some sort of similar conversation. This online environment can be an amazing place to grow, but it can also stop you in your tracks and make you feel less than. Less than what? Less than everyone or anything. It can be a place of love and support or a breading ground of toxic competitive relationships.

I sat back and watched. I read, and listened. I needed to find my place again. I needed to get back to my reason for being here. My reason for blogging in the first place. I needed to get back to basics. So that is what I am doing. Plain and simple.

This is my personal blog. My space. Who knows what might end up on here and that is okay. It will be whatever I need it to be that day.

I will be doing reviews and giveaways on my Budge Bunch site. That is a work in progress with the kids and we are looking forward to have some fun over there. I also still have my local blog and I will be updating it with some fun stuff in the next week.

I love my online community. I want to be here. I want to grow. I can not imagine my life without the amazing friends I have because of this community. Sometimes you just need to sit back and listen to those voices in your head. Sometimes you need to remember it’s not all about the money, likes, shares, tweets or page views.

Sometimes it’s just about the connection.

cheryl
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